I began the practical aspects of my journey a long time ago - planning for two years, working on it for the last two months. But my inner journey is also ongoing, and I have a good spiritual director to walk with me.
Yesterday I was only supposed to give an update from our last session and also go to confession. But perhaps to prepare for this season of grace, I was asked to open up for more, with kindness, compassion, and gentleness.
I have been asked to ponder on God's goodness and love for me.
For He has been good to me, even when I was unfaithful. He never left my side. He guided my steps. He protected me from harm. He answered my prayers. He provided for all my needs, and more.
I have been asked to pick a Psalm to pray with. I choose Psalm 43:5 this afternoon.
Why are you cast down, O my soul,and why are you in turmoil within me?
Hope in God; for I shall again praise him,my salvation and my God. (ESV)
Another version reads:
Why are you cast down, O my soul, and why are you disquieted within me?
And so goes the first day of the next 40 days.Hope in God; for I shall again praise him, my help and my God. (RSV)