Those were very beautiful and deep passages, but I only had a few minutes a day for "formal" prayer. As advised by my SD, I walked the rest of the day in prayer, continuing what I had started in the morning through the Scripture verse assigned.
I was grateful that this time, the invitation to follow Jesus did not elicit fear in me. I just said "Yes, Lord, you know everything, and you know that I love you." I received the grace to be open, to surrender, and to wait on what the Lord will reveal to me at this point in my life. This Yes followed a series of responses I had made since I had given my life to the Lord in 1993, and even before that.
This grace enabled me to weather painful news that the younger brother of one of my closest friends was diagnosed with cancer. I was shocked but gradually came to realize just how much the Lord had enabled my friend and her family to face this crisis.
My response to Jesus' invitation to follow Him also allowed me to choose to be where I am right now, and not to resent it. I have heard Him calling me to stay and I have decided to willingly stay. I am able to embrace it because I know Jesus asked it of me and that means He will be with me every step of the way.
All of a sudden, the restlessness building up inside me dissipated. It might come back but I have this to hold on to - that I have accepted who and where I am, and given the option of leaving vs. staying, I was invited to stay, and I gladly said Yes.
This gives me the freedom now to look at my life with more hope and confidence. I can take stock of my roles and take them on with renewed strength.
Jesus truly meets us where we are.